Well, I did it. Something I never thought I’d do.
I wrote The Scene this weekend. The Biggee. I wrote a full-out, down and dirty, detailed and delicious sex scene. A lemon. And it was fun.
That’s right; I did it . . . . And I liked it.
All I had to do was step away from the characters I’ve been working with and write about a pair of complete strangers doing things my established characters have never even thought of trying. Well, things I’ve never thought if doing to them — with them–for them — oh, hell, ya’lll know what I mean.
The bad news is that this particular scene doesn’t fit with my novel, even if I plug in different names. No, this is basically a stand alone bit of erotica. The good news is that I feel ready to do it again now that I pushed my way through the first time. I’m not scared of it any more, now that I know what to expect.
Not unlike losing my virginity a second time, but with Josh Groban playing in the background this time around instead of Michael Bolton.
So now I have this . . . thing that I’ve written and I don’t know what to do with it. I’ve discovered that most erotic “novels” on Smashwords are actually little more than short stories, and I’m thinking about putting my little story on Smashwords. I have to do more research first to make sure that Smashwords really is free, and that I really would retain all rights to my own work, but I’m seriously considering the idea.
My biggest dilemma here is deciding what name to use when (and if) I self-publish it.
As it is now, I don’t use a pen name to hide my identity from anyone. I use a pen name because my real name is boring. Also because I apparently share my real name with a semi-famous journalist. But I post links to my blog right on my personal Facebook page with my own picture, and there’s not a person in my life who doesn’t know that I am also A.J. Goode. So far, I have nothing to hide.
I have no idea what to do if I self-publish erotica.
Do I publish it as A.J. Goode and use the experience to build up my professional writing resume? Do I create another pen name just for this? If I publish erotica under a different name, do I keep it a secret from my followers here on this blog, or do I share the links with you guys and just let the world know that I write under two names?
Or do I just set the whole thing aside and forget about it while I get back to work on my novel?
I’m just not sure what my next step is at this point.